The Lonely Fool

Loneliness is something I have unfortunately gotten used to over the past year. All my life I had been the kind of person that had friends. Not all of them were close friends, but I knew enough people to never have had to be alone for more than about an half and hour at a stretch.
At my first year at college, before the 'episode', I had a few friends, and I went out and about a lot. Unfortunately for me, I didn't really care about any of these friendships because I was completely enamored by this one boy, and I ignored everybody else in favor of him. Also unfortunately for me, he didn't care about me. So basically, although I had friends, I had succeeded in isolating myself.
The year I returned, after my leave of absence, I was sure I was going to be on better terms with everybody - including that Certain Boy, who I was sure had feelings for me and just 'didn't know how to show them.' Blech. Sometimes I make myself vomit.
Anyway, the second year was about a million times worse. Yes, I was better settled, I was in my senses for one, and I knew what was going on, but I was depressed, and to be honest, I had no friends. I did have a few friends from the year before, but I didn't meet them often and I barely spoke to any of the new people in my classes. I was socially fucked.
So this year, I hope to change things. I have started working out and have lost a bit of weight, which is already making me feel more confident about myself. I haven't smoked in about six weeks and I feel great and I don't think I will ever go back to it. I just feel awesome.
So I asked the cards whether I would make any new friends this semester. This is the reading:

Question: Will I make good friends this semester?
Where I am: The Sun
My future: The Fool
What I should do: The Hermit (reversed)
What I shouldn’t do: The Magician
Reading: I feel great about myself right now. I am at a place where I am starting to feel confident and happy and healthy. If I continue like this, I will have truly achieved the state of the Fool - I will be carefree, uninhibited and be able to relate to the people around me as myself and not some persona I assume in an attempt to get them to like me. What I shouldn’t do is isolate myself like The Hermit would. Instead of shying away from people in an attempt to spend more time with myself for the purpose of ‘finding’ myself, I should go out and spend time with people. I should accept invitations to parties, go out, talk to friends of friends, really spend time with the people I might have otherwise just had one or two conversations with. What I shouldn’t do, however, is impose myself on people and try too hard and force a friendship that isn’t there. To be more like the Fool, I need to go with the flow, be less dynamic and more easy-going, care-free and honest about my true friendship. The less demanding I am of people, the more they will get to see me as the real me - a care-free, laid-back, self-satisfied young woman.

If I follow the advice of these cards, I really think I will be a lot happier this semester. I am more excited than nervous for what is to happen over the next three weeks and I feel that that in itself is a good sign.